1st weekend of 2014

experienced the first of lash fall out.
sjp :X
it's only been 1 week! have been trying my best to be careful and gentle but i suppose eyeliner is an evil thing. i shall stop putting eyeliner. this will be the closest ever to anyone seeing my no make up face.
hahaha. i make it sound damn scary.
it is.

just checked and my next appt is on 24th. which is a Fri. at 1pm?
either i got the date wrong or i was still in holiday mood when i made that appt. need to take leave due to vanity.

it's only been 1.5/2 months since i did that. i can't believe i'm censoring myself on my blog too cuz' i don't know who reads this. WELL. i don't know why i'm being furtive about it since i am rather proud of doing it. anyway, colleagues were saying cannot tell!
i bet if i told friends they'd also give the same reaction.
i personally am so used to seeing it that i don't remember how i looked before. is that strange? doesn't help that so many old photos were photoshopped. HAHAHA.
i d'no. do people who see me in real life think i look damn different from my photos?
i swear i have stopped using photoshop.
on a sidenote, i look through old photos and think why i ever allowed them to see the light of day? must have thought damn chio. i guess 5 years down the road, i will look at the photos taken in 2013 and think like that still can post?

how should i say this?
when i had no options, i was sad. (ok not sad, i couldn't be bothered)
now that i have more than 1 option, i'm also rather annoyed.
when you get a choice, there is that possibility of making the wrong one. it would be really stupid to waste 25 years of life on something unreliable. my risk appetite is pretty low. unless it's almost a done deal, i refuse to commit to it.
at this stage, i think i will abstain from concluding. it's too early to tell what is real and what is transient.

i told jars i will keep an open mind. that's a good decision, isn't it?
never put all your eggs in one basket.