I am seriously considering quitting.
This isn't that monthly emo episode where I have a short fuse and am generally angry for a couple of days.
NO! I am completely serious.
I can survive if jobless but part of me is like, do I want to be?! I'm SCARED.
At the same time, I'm not happy at all and every day I'm like, I don't want to go, I hate everything.
The pressure, the unhappiness, the attitudes I have to face, the fuckers I have to face.
MELTDOWN.
I won't be surprised if one day, I just explode and start throwing things and screaming. Last week I secretly wanted to stand up and shout SHUT THE FUCK UP.
I d'no. Asking someone to GO AND DIE sounds good too.
Hmm, quite obvious what some of my favorite phrases are.
Anyway, thinking about this whole thing makes me want to break down and cry.
I feel helpless, like I can't do anything! And I have people saying useless stuff like discussing it will make you feel better. Hello! Discuss what? If you don't help, you're just wasting my time. And yes, shut the fuck up! If you can't help then talk less.
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