I haven't had time to think about it

That's what I tell myself.
It's true!
But I've been reminded to spare a thought for myself, to find happiness, to figure out what I seek.
Have to admit haven't ... Had time to do that. Too busy to think! But that's also an excuse. Lose yourself in work and pray no stray thoughts pay you a visit.

My cousin recently gave birth. Damn fast!!! She got married last Oct I believe. Ok probably not that fast? Anyway, I still don't have any motherly instincts. Seriously I'm not at that age yet! When they offer to let me hold the child, I was like "You have got to be kidding me..." and I guess my expression said it all.
I don't feel that babies are cute or feel any cooing urges. I'd rather coo at animals any day.

Well... Relatives were like, oh she's still traumatized from bullying her cousin into tears at a young age. Yea technically I didn't bully. He was too chui!!! Just like how Yan and I did not bully the boys at preschool into tears. We were unfairly punished. Funny how the 3 of us cousins got punished quite abit. Hooligans.
Yan, De and I :) erm, we stand corrected. Haha!

Yea anyway, my relatives remarked that in a few years' time, I'd be fine when I bring my own kid.
I was like O_O You don't say!
NEVER!!! (brother: say never)
Seriously, abit the not possible can? Just like when people ask when I want to get married- obviously asap so I can blissfully retire and be taitai right? But since I'm not in any position to consider that, what's the point of thinking? If you've set a goal and still single? Then how? Beg random guy to marry you?

Arghhh! Don't need such complications in life. Exactly the kind of stray thoughts I try to keep at bay.